What I Need — 7/23/2018

I am aware that everything I need to be successful, blessed, and happy is already in my life. It may not seem like it, but only because I am focusing on the wrong things. The problems I face that make me stop believing are things that I try to do too soon. God is kind enough to teach me a lesson from the journey that makes me better for His use.

I should not take life into my own hands. I need to control the part of myself that believes I know better than Him. I must trust that if I don’t have something it’s because I am not ready for it. I must believe that if it’s on my plate, I can handle it. I have to stop doubting my strength and testing grace. I have to stop doing what feels right, and start doing what makes me a better person. That action may require me to have a new level of discipline or deeper level of vulnerability. There will be countless things that allow me an escape from my insecurities. I can not use them. Instead, I have to see my insecurities for what they are: places where love can fill in the gap. I have to love myself enough that the insecurities disappear.

I have to be patient. Once I reach the destination I have in my mind, I will see that there is still work to be done. Then I probably will wish that time would slow down long enough for me to enjoy the view. I want to find something beautiful about life every day. I want to look beyond the bills, the heartbreak, and the failed dreams. I want to see the beauty in having another day, another chance. I want to choose to no longer worship the way things should have been. I will praise God for knowing I wasn’t ready because Father knows best!

About Hester Guest

I am a retired teacher. I love spending time with my children, grandchildren, and friends. Reading, studying my Bible, sewing, and playing games on my computer, phone, or tablet fill my spare time. Jesus is my Saviour!
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