I am aware that everything I need to be successful, blessed, and happy is already in my life. It may not seem like it, but only because I am focusing on the wrong things. The problems I face that make me stop believing are things that I try to do too soon. God is kind enough to teach me a lesson from the journey that makes me better for His use.

I should not take life into my own hands. I need to control the part of myself that believes I know better than Him. I must trust that if I don’t have something it’s because I am not ready for it. I must believe that if it’s on my plate, I can handle it. I have to stop doubting my strength and testing grace. I have to stop doing what feels right, and start doing what makes me a better person. That action may require me to have a new level of discipline or deeper level of vulnerability. There will be countless things that allow me an escape from my insecurities. I can not use them. Instead, I have to see my insecurities for what they are: places where love can fill in the gap. I have to love myself enough that the insecurities disappear.

I have to be patient. Once I reach the destination I have in my mind, I will see that there is still work to be done. Then I probably will wish that time would slow down long enough for me to enjoy the view. I want to find something beautiful about life every day. I want to look beyond the bills, the heartbreak, and the failed dreams. I want to see the beauty in having another day, another chance. I want to choose to no longer worship the way things should have been. I will praise God for knowing I wasn’t ready because Father knows best!